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I am preparing to go to France, to visit my father. Going back “home” after deliberately moving to another continent has always evoked some very deep feelings for me… This time even more so, as there is a celebration planned to honor the first anniversary of my mother’s death. Also I am an only child, the only “treasure” left to a very lonely father; heavy stuff! By the same token, I am not so unique as a child: it is likely that I have a few cosmic brothers and sisters who also feel divided about going home for Thanksgiving! Have “I” come to loving me enough to not react to the words or actions of my father, and salute the divine in my most fated human relationship: this of my parents? Have I evolved enough and took back enough of my projections that I can be totally with him while still staying with me? A line of the song New York, New York comes to mind: “If I can make it there / I’ll make it anywhere…” Yes, it is up to me, as the initiation is akin to this of a Zen student who practices meditation in the midst of the most chaotic room ever! Yesterday, I was apprehensive; today, I am grateful for the opportunity granted me – to be the wise woman who smiles at everything unconditionally, especially the scars. Moreover, it warms my heart to know that I am taking you with me, the witness of my being open to trans-form…

Turquoise Waters, smiling